Water and Bridges.

I'm sure. Even after all this time, I would smile.

I don't quite remember when was the last time I saw you, not sure if it was in the beginning of this year or the end of the previous one. Nevertheless, I'm sure I would smile. With disregard of the past silent months, it would be really endearing to see you again.

Except, well, you broke the silence, and I was kind of expecting it. But I can't answer it.

I think I know why I can't do it. I'm pretty sure. Maybe someday I'll explain, maybe not. To me, well, at least to me, our relationship was always kind of ambiguous, that's why I can't answer you, that's why I don't know if I'll explain or not. The thing is, you took the initiative, you broke the silence and you did the right thing by doing so. You were the bigger person there, and I can't answer to that, not now, at least, I'd just screw everything up.
With your message, you called out to me, to us, to our friendship, our companionship. I want to be able to answer to that. But like a said, I can't. I'm sorry.
Trust me, I'd screw us up, I don't have the necessary strength to clear up what I know I need to say to you, so we can have a more honest relationship. I mean, more honest, from me to you.
But, I think, even more than that, I'm afraid that if we get together, I'll put a weight on you, one that you shouldn't carry, you don´t deserve it, and I know you would force me to tell you what is that weight; so, no, not for now.
I'm sorry.

It's been too long.

I'm okay

Honest

The thruth will set you free.


I wish I had the strength to speak the thruth...

Fairy Tail

Third Law of Fairy Tail's farewell ceremony: "Tough our paths may have diverged, you must continue to live out your life with all your might. You must never consider your own life to be of little value and you must never forget about your friends, who loved you..."

Avanzar

No basta con sentirse bien y pensar que estoy feliz, ya he caído en la ingenuidad de dejarme llevar por eso y no tomar acciones para respaldar mis sentimientos. Así que ahora no, por muy bien que me sienta, siempre hay que tener en cuenta la inestabilidad emocional.

Un nuevo esfuerzo, nuevamente a conquistar día por día, ocupando tanto tiempo que no me quede para pensar y debilitar mi mente hasta el punto de ahogarme en un vaso de agua, ahora sí voy a tener mugre debajo de mis uñas, basta de siempre empezar de nuevo.

Again and again

I feel TRAPPED.


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I'm the voice inside your head you refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face, mirroring your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right, I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that took you down, bring you to your knees
So who are you? Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you? Yeah, who are you?

I'm still the pretender.